written life

surprise!!

2010-03-15T08:12:00.000-07:00

it's beem a long time since i've posted huh..
now that it's the one week break,i finally have time to chill but cannot chill for too long..
must start work soon..
but apart from that..
my main reason to post tdy was to thank my two little sweetheart for rushing to do a celebration for my bday..
haha..
they were so cute trying to hide the things for me and i being the cuckoomonkey that i am, totally fell for everything..
haha..
i could not even tell they were doing smth fishy..
hah..well wads new..
haha..
but apart from that, no matter how rushed it was i still apprecaited it from the bottom of my heart..
and i love you both..
muacks..

ps..photo's will be uploaded later k.. : )

stupid historians!!

2010-02-18T04:56:00.000-08:00

the days are passing by so quickly..
with each day gone, it's one step closer to 'o' level!!
GASP!! OMG!!
i promise you the days are really passing by too fast..
u do one test than u haveto prepare for another the next day..
it jus never ends..
tdy had bio and geog test and tmr will be my lovely 2 essays that will have to be crammed into my head for social studies..
ppl in the past must have been really bored to make so many things happen and force us to study wad the did now..
so interesting ah!! go die lah..
i'm not in the best condition with a stupid cough and the weather ain't helping ppl..
now if u will excuse me,i have to go learn abt stupid donkeys that created the ASEAN union or smth like that..

: (

complain session!!

2010-01-29T16:30:00.000-08:00

when u want things to go a certain way, it doesn't but instead it goes the other way..wad the hell is life's problem?
i currently am aching after the ug hie yesterday and i can't go to sleep cos my room is like so hot..
i'm irritated wif my sister's who are lazy donkeys and would not get up to do their duties and i haven't finish my tuition hw which is due tdy..
to top it all off wif a cherry on top, i have to start revising for common test..
is there anyway my life could get more packed?
oh god, even as i write this my back is aching and the pain is simply killing me!!
i know it sounds like i'm a complain queen but hey, everybody need to complain once in a while..
it's good for health and keeps u sane..
but apart from that,it feels like there is not one day of peace..
almost everyday there would be problems that crop up out of nowhere..
and the best thing is that i don't know how to deal wif them..
i jus try to go one step at a time.. jus one step at a time..
ok..i think i'm done complaining so let's get back to work ppl..
I CAN DO THIS!! i won't give up and strive to do my best!!
good luck to me!! *smile*

: )

ta ra rum pum pum pum...

2010-01-17T06:27:00.000-08:00

so cute!!

cannot take it..

tara rum pum, taara rum pum...

: )

i'm terrified but i'm not leaving..

2010-01-07T06:41:00.000-08:00

i;m tired and sleepy but i can't sleep cos of hw..
i know i should go and do t instesd of complaining her but my body iss jus so tired that i cannot bring myself to do it..
wad am i gonna do wif myself tell me?
i'm scared for O levels and the course that i'm gonna take later on in life..
there is so many things to worry abt but i can only worry abt them one at a time..
sigh..
if only i could jus wish that eerything was like a fairytale where everyone lives happily ever after..
why do we have to have problems and what not huh?
i jus wan to live a normal life..
is that too much to ask?
sigh...

this i promise u!!!!

2009-12-20T11:18:00.000-08:00

it's 3.30 in the morning and i'm still awake..
wad's wrong wif me??
aghh!!!
tmr confirm cannot wake up early..
worse is that i can't even watch my drama..
waaa!!
the stupid parts won't load..
i jus have to be content wif mv's i guess..
oh my g..
i'm talking like crazy person..
but wad the heck, i'm human..
haha..hee hee..hoo hoo..

"love is a poison so why not let me be the antidote for your sickness"

oh crap, i'm totally smitten..
kekeke..
: )

busy busy busy..

2009-12-18T06:43:00.000-08:00

i glanced at my blog and saw how pathetic it looked that i could no longer ignore it and decided to update..
well, generally i'm being a good proper GIRL by staying home and rotting away or at least that is what good proper GIRLS do..
hmph..
makes u think doesn't it wad a chauvanistic world it is..
sigh..
well, this week travelled to melacca wif aunt, grandma and second sis..
it was a really sort stay so nothing much was done except for lazing around in the hotel room..
hehe..
had loads of fun cos there was a bathtub and plus we ordered lots of room service..
kekekeke..
but it was quite tiring with the long drive and i really conked out when we reached home..
tdy, went to meet my aunt and cousin wif sister dearest and had breakfast at Delifrance after which went to catch the movie AVATAR..
the movie was very long i tell u..
almost 3 hours and by the end of the movie, my teeth were chattering eventhough i had my sweater..
basically ,it's been busy but i so damning miss my sayangs..
i wan go shoppinh sia..
so many nice things to buy but so little oppurtunity for me to go out..
sigh..
sad sad sad..

three words..

2009-11-22T08:25:00.000-08:00

three words..

i was depressed..

~~~~~some say it ain't over tiil it's over~~~~

best performance by 2PM without jaebeom..

hwaiting oppas!!

yayness!!

2009-11-17T05:33:00.000-08:00

oh my god..
staying home too long is definitely not good for one's health..
lately i stay at home than like piggy..
sleep and sleep itell u..
tdy did a lot of work..
damn tired ah..
my shoulders damn pain..
finally cleaned out my study table and washed some clothes..
god i sound like a auntie sia..
clean this, wash that..
sigh..
wad has my life turned into?
i miss my shazifah ayuzi..
hopefully she's working hard and having fun..
tmr will be going schl for guides but at least got bbq to look forward to..
yay!!!
oh and my cousin and aunt is coming down in feb next yr..
another yay!!!
finally get to meet them after so long..
thankfully can meet my cousin before he goes off to study..
yayness!!!
god will they be surprised when they see me..
it's been so long..
can't wait!!
haha..hee hee..hoo hoo..
smile : )

happily ever after!!!!

2009-11-09T05:02:00.001-08:00

i swear i'm damn tired tdy..
why do we have to even go to stupid extended curricculum huh?
damn tired..
lately have been watching a lot of hindi movies..
especially the old ones..
i'm not like those other girls who are in love wif sharukh and watch his shows only..
i give support to other actors also okayyy..
hehe..
anybody got nice romantic hindi movie wif a good ending?
can lend?
pls pls pls?
sigh..
damn tired, gonna turn in soon..
goodnight, sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite..
heheh..

*finally it's over..
now i can have my happily ever after..
smile..
: )

2009-11-01T06:41:00.000-08:00

hey ppl..
lately too lazy to post but finally got my but off the couch to post..
i've been too busy watching and laughing videos and shows..
those who know me would immediately think i've been watching korean movies again but not exactly..
this time, it's hindi movies!!
muahahah..
gotcha didn't i?
well, it's not surprising, after all i am an indian..
hehe..
but not to worry cos i'll always have time to keep on watching my korean dramas..
but i wanna watch more hindi shows..
i swear they are way more entertaining than our local entertainent indudtry..
not only that but shahid kapoor is so good looking..
man i don't know if he worked out or wad but wadever it is, carry on..
go shahid!!!
haha..

thank u..i love u..

2009-10-22T07:52:00.000-07:00

sigh..
how in the world do i even start this post i honestly don't know..
but here goes,
firstly, i understand and i'm glad that i told u all..
at least u know now..
and last thing.. human support is reassured...

yesterday my heart was hurt, tdy it is relieved and reassured..
i love my girlfrens forever and ever and god do i hope it stays that way..
: )

support staff is human too!!

2009-10-20T07:06:00.000-07:00

it jus sucks when u are overided..
i swear..
when the ppl that u were there for last time leave u alll alone to bawl u'r eyeballs out as u cry u'rself to sleep..
when u feel lonely when those ppl move away cos everyone moves on except for me..
but u know that it's not their fault cos instead u'r the one that is jus the stuck in the mud that has to get going..
sigh..
i swear i'm wierd but my reasons are justifiable..
who wouldn't feel the way i feel..
it feels like everyone in the world has abandoned u and left u to fend for urself..
it's not like i'm unfamilliar to fending for myself but i used to have someone to do it with..
nowadays, it seems like i'm alone..
how sad my life has turned outr to be..
no matter how much i try, this feeling jus won't go away..
why o why?
am i doomed to loneliness till the end?
does it really have to be that way?
i don't need anything else except for someone that will be MY pillar of support instead of it being the other way round..
i don't mind being u'r support staff but can't the support staff be supported by u as well?
at times u'r support staff is human too u know..
if only life was perfect and everyone would not be confusing..
sigh, but since when has life ever been like that?
uh?
wadever..

sorry..i love u!!!

2009-10-19T08:39:00.000-07:00

vims!!!!
i'm damn sorry!!!
sorry sorry sorry sorry....
i didn't mean to not wish u..
don't angry can?
pls pls pls?
i love u!!!!
muacks..
don't angry wif me k..
this is a special wish from me to u " HAPPY DIWALI!!!!!"
STAY HAPPY ALWAYS!!!!

well, tdy woke up wif a little screaming from shazifah ayuzi screaming for me to get up..
eh aunty pls ah..
u and i same gang ok..
don't jump gang and wake up at 7 all..
tdy woke up and headed to amk wif mum to buy a dress for her staff party or smth..
spent so long there that i thought that my legs were gonna fall off..
dunno why but so lazy tdy and my feet were so painful i tell u..
after coming home went to my sister's toshibaby and watched a few things..
hehe..
oh and i like other ppl apart from suju and hyun joong not like a bimbo who is only interested in looks but someone who is interested in them as a person, their personality and the hardsips they have to go through before becoming stars..
get that..
smile..
this is one song that is extremely touching especially the father's few words at 2:46..

to know the full story check out this youtube scc:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VD3r5C1h0gw..

Tasha/Yoon MiRae fighting!!

smile..

photos galore

2009-10-17T07:22:00.001-07:00

hey ppl..
today has been busy..
after my beauty sleep was fulfilled got ready and headed to my tuition teacher's house for hari raya..
was all dressed up but the heels were really killing my feet..
bad experiences wif heels might traumatise me for life u know..
scary..
haha..
oh well, after that went to gramma house and slacked until finally returning home at 9+..
finally uploaded some of my hari raya photos..

it took long and there are only a few but it's better than nothing..

smile..

the last two are photos today so enjoy..

oh yeah..

to durga,ameresh,premela,keety,dashan(sori sapna) and durgesh,

HAPPY DIWALI!!

HAVE FUN YA..

freedom returned!!

2009-10-15T23:59:00.002-07:00

yaa!!!!
exams finally over and i've regained my freedom once again..
it feels so good to be free from studies and commitments..
once again i can enjoy my time doing wadever i want and whenever i want..
however,since o level next yr, shan't play too much cos i want to go to a good poly ok..
so let's take a break and continue mugging for o level..
i honestly hope that my bio is ok..
today was bio papere but i was not very prepared..
i don't want to fail but if i have to at least fail me decently wif a 45 +..
pls pls pls..
i think maths can make it lah this time..
better make it..
i'm aiming for a B like that..
don't think can get A so i'll settle for a B..
humans i think can make it also..
ss was a breeze except for source based and geog was fine except for a 9 marks which are cofirm gonecase..
wadever happens, as longas i get decent results as well as succed in going to next yr 4E3 i think my life would be fine..
but aresolution i have made for next yr..
i'm gonna work my but off for 0 level and when the results come at least i can say i tried my best..
also i'm definitely starting early for bio and maybe i can get nathira to coach me..
hmm..
oh well, wad's done is done so now i'm gonna enjoy the little time i can before doomsday arrives..
smile..
: )

stress!!!

2009-10-03T10:02:00.000-07:00

exams are finally here..
i don't know if is hld cheer or cry cos eoy means holidays are here..
but getting past the exams is really gonna be challenge..
next yr,gonna start studying early and do well for o level..
smile ppl..
tdy cabut from the house as quickly as possible cos of some unwelcome ppl...
headed down to amk kfc and did a bit of solid poa..
yaa..
tmr hopefully can get more done..
: )
i'm really starting to feel the stress for eoy and well parents ren't helpingto reduce that stress.
oh and i honestly wish ppl would stop comparing..
aaah..
different ppl different style..
get that?
anyway, this yr really recession lah..
jus counted my hari raya money..
mush lesser than previous yr..
but spent a good amt on my new sony ericsson ear piece..
damn ex but got warranty lah so shld be worth it lah..
anyway, will end here cos its getting late..
don't sppose i'll update until aft exam so ciao..
smilez..
: )

money is funny

2009-09-21T01:10:00.000-07:00

hey ppl..
eid is the best i tell u..
go houses, layan the ppl a bit than get money..
the last part is the best part man..
anyways, yesterday dolled up wif my sisters and yessa finally my mother agree to put on eyeshadow for me after i begged her..
muahahaha..
basically ppl came over and we went over to grandma hose and slacked the entire day there..
watched a lot of shows and ignored all the ppl that came over to visit..
haha..heehee..hoohoo..
not unless green packets flashed in their hands..
muahahaha..
k now have to go get ready and get ouit of the house again..
: )

2009-09-17T07:09:00.000-07:00

just gonna blog very fast..have to go and study alr..
this weekend id eid and there's so much work to do that i don't think there is enough time to revise this weekend..
yaa!! whe there's eid, money comes too and as i've planned,i'm gonna buy my earphones wif that money..
yaa!!!
haha..
eid mubarak to all people who are muslims and hope you have a good eid..
anyways, now have to go study for EOY..
whee!!
hwaiing..
: )
haha..hjeehee..hoohoo..
love..loved....koves...

frustrated ,frustrated,frustrated

2009-09-11T08:20:00.000-07:00

i swear staying at home is thee worst thing u can do especially for me..
staying at home is so repulsive cos staying home just equals to beccoming the slave of the day..
fun right..
well,let's not talk abt that now..
tdy, as i've alr complained, stayed at home and did not accomplish anything..
jus lazed around and listened to mp3..
had a nice dinner and had a short hour or so of maths tuition..
at leat the day wasn't wasted..
and my sister made me laugh so hard during tuition as she sang in the room while i was in the other room figuring out horrible maths..
hahaha..
honestly, she's crazy..
haha..
anyway, parents these days can really get very ting ting..
nag and nag and nag..
honestly if only i had been quick enough, i would have packed up and left the house as soon as my brain was thinking straight..
now i have not finished e maths hw as well as chem hw..
thank goodness poa hw is done and as for the rest i think that there is no hw..
or i hope there isn't..
breaking news of the week is that my favourite kim hyun joong,leader of SS501, whom i've liked way before his boys over flowers acting days, is currently suffering from H1N1..
but he's on the road to recovery and should be back in action in abt a months time..
the poor guy is totally overworked man..
give him a break pls..
before he finally buckels down and we are left without our favourite leader..
anyway, the bigger news is that jaebeom of 2pm is currently in seattle and there is no news if he's gonna come back..
pls do come back pls..
the korean music industry is gonna shrivel up without u..
plus if u don't come back many of u'r fans are most prob gonna cry their eyes sore..
hwaiting..
and i guess that most of u that have read this post u would prob think i'm some crazy korean fanatic but to set the record straight, i'm very selective abt who i go crazy over..
hehe..
anyway,if u didn't understand anything that i've written, it's fine cos i'm not expecting anyone to really understand and this is my only space where i can vent my sadness for jaebeom and hyun joong oppas and my anger at the korean netizens who ruthlessly control the lives of celebrities as though they are their puppets..
hmph..
anyway, jaebeom and hyun joong hwaiting!!!
saranghae!!
: )
love..loves ..loved..
haha..heehee..hoohoo..

2009-09-09T10:24:00.000-07:00

lately have been very naughty..
heehee..
really must buck up lah..
yasterday watch a hindi movie online called 'kuch kuch hota hain'..
it's a damn sad movie and never fails to make me cry..
i know i'm naughty but i couldn't help it..i'm only human..
haha..
anyways, tdy went out to meet ayu, benjamin and navin to study chem..
as usual i was late and forced them to wait for me..
heheh..
but i couldn't help it..
anyway, didn't do much studying tdy and now well, i'm definitely not studying..
hopefully can accomplish more..
hehe..
i think that's all folks..
muahahah..
: )
love..loves..loved..

busy busy busy..

2009-09-07T07:57:00.000-07:00

hey ppl..
tdy was a very cold day!!!
in the morning left early to go to schl for some stupid poa training thing..
i thought that we would end t 11 plus but turns out that it was all the way to 4..
immediately me and durga turned around and headed to settle our buts on the comfy cushions at mac..haha..
tdy i brought my louis out wif me cos ayuni asked me very sweetly wif a cherry n top to bring it..
in the end could not resist my sugar pie honey bun and lugged it all the way from sna4 to boon keng..
hada lot of fun wif it despite some irritating ppl who were taking up space wif their fat buttocks and eating upo the internet connection..
anyways, didn't do much work until we finally put dear louis away and got cracking on hw..
was late in coming home to break fast and was so worried that mummy would scold but she kept hr cool and didn't scold.. hehe..
it's late and i think i'm gonna turn in cos the day has been long..
so goodnight ppl have sweet dreams..
: )
haha..hehe..hoohoo..

Brain freeze!

2009-09-05T09:02:00.000-07:00

been quite a while since my last post but mainly because been damn busy preparing for final yr..
must do well no matter what..
haiz..
anyway, for tonight let's be bit naughty k and watch some things online heheh..
: )
i mean come on..
i'm allowed this much right?
haha..
well, i recently just heard this song and it's damning nice..
the beat damn shiok..
and some of the dance moves also not bad..
for all u'r benefit i'm gonna upload it..
i'm so kind right?
haha..

don't know if u'll like it but i like it and that's wad matters..
heheh..

plus to make my bloga bit more colourful than it's normal dying look,
i'm gonna add another two videos..
check out the difference..

hot right?
haha..
next is a parody of this song..

the last one especially made me laugh the hardest..
well, enjoy but if u got any negative comments, keep it to u'rself..
they're not needed currently..
haha.. hehe..hoo hoo..
: )

Blank

2009-08-25T02:24:00.000-07:00

hellos!!

got nothing much to post lah..

jus wan to say that i didn't know ppl who i treated as friends could be so heartless and i don't know when where that person that i was frens wif went..

anyway, live u'r life the way u want to but unfortunately it's gonna be without me..

ok..apart from that, currently it's the fasting month and i'm still surviving so yaa!

haha..

gonna buka soon so even more yaa!!

haha..

results not bad lah..

except for combined science and bio, everything quite ok..

oh and of course how could i forget my wonderful mother tounge..malay..

well, got full marks for that subject..

in my big dreams.. : P

now only mugging for bio test on thurs..

pls let me pass this time pretty pretty pleeeease?

nothing else to say alr lah..

bye bye..

till the next time i post..

: P

love...love...love...

haha..hee hee...hoo hoo...

Speechless

2009-08-13T06:59:00.000-07:00

i know it's slow but u'r words always hurts..

eventhough u never said it to my face, the sting is still there when i read it..

when i imagine how u would say it to me should the day ever come that you will say it,it would definitely hurt harder..

the sarcasm in your words made my head hurt and my eyes moist that all i could do was hold my head..

i agree that i hurt your feelings but i had a point too..

and like i said, if u wre upset, u shld have said something instead of being spitefull in and sarcastic..

but i don't want to rake up the past and look like i'm a petty person..

it's not something ui'll forget but i'll try my hardest..

sigh..

you make my head go round and round..

: (

round and round.......

When will you be honest with me?

2009-07-31T06:58:00.000-07:00

i don't know wad is the prob so how am i supposed to fix it?

i didn't even know that i did smth and the way u jus left like that shocked me so much..

if there was anything u know that u can always have told me..

so why did u jus leave like that?

if watever u told A was true than i don't know wad to say?

we never had any sort of prob like that so why now?

it was such a small thing yet the way u reacted tells me that there is more than one thing that bothering u..

is it that u didn't want to tell me?

if so than u could have told me..

why did u jus walk off?

and if the reason u are angry is because of money, than i have nothing to say..

is money so powerful that it can break relationships that have lasted for years?

wad is the reason>

would u pls tell me?

if the reason is money than i'm sori but i'll be truly dissapointed..

will u pls be honest wif me?

pls?

What.

2009-07-28T08:50:00.000-07:00

wad can i write now?

my life may not be perfect but currently,.there is too many things for me to complain abt..

firstly, my earphones have broken down and now i don't have earphones..

anyone know where to get good but cheap earphone?

pls?

plus,i don't have much money left after some ppls bday..

it really make me think that i should ask my frens to get some stuff..

but let's wait for next yr..

i'm gonna die..

T T..

i'm rreally not bucking up like i said i would..

been slacking toon much..

die sia..

must make sure that it goes smoothly..

pls do..

bio commom test nxt week!!

die..

help!!!

let'g go study now and we'll see how well we come through..

: )

I love you babe!

2009-07-19T06:42:00.000-07:00

hey babes!!

firstly snce yesterday never blog i jus wanna say....HAPPY BIRTHADY SYAZIFAH AYUZI!!!

haha..

yesterday was my beloved babes bday..

went to suntec to celebrate..

supposed to go the skygarden but in the end dunno where we go until we ended up at the founatin of wealth..

heheh..

well,i've got to say it was an eventfull bday but the bottomline,i hope that she enjoyed herself even if not everything went according to plan..

: )

will upload pics later k..

and next year i'm gonna make sure she ges a better bday than this years one..

and that's a promise!!!

but one thing is my poor feet are totally beaten up because of my stupid heels..

and this is a reminder to all my girlfies..

NO MOREW HEELS THEMED PARTIES!!!

never again will i go through the pain of wearing heels the whole day even if it looked good..

heheh..

laughs shyly..

hahaha..

now i've got nothing left to post and should get cracking on my hw..

i've been really neglecting it..

bye babes..

love ya muacks!!!!

if you could turn back time..

2009-07-15T07:58:00.001-07:00

ever wondered how different u'r life would be if u did things differently?

i sometimes do that..

when u ask me qns abt boys and how would i feel when my loved one dies before i have a chance to confess,,

these type of qns make me think of reality..

wad if that really happens?

there is always a chance that i'm too much of a coward to confess..

not only that the boundaries that i myself have put in place to protect myself..

i may seem uninterested but i'm a girl too..

how can i not be curious?

but as trime goes by,i tell myself to be content wif wad i like that i have right now..

but apart from that, after getting my love louis, i've really been able to do a lot more things..

like for instance,blog more and hear more songs..

currently i'm listening to a lot of songs but the thing is that if i put all the songs onmy blog,ppl will think i'm crazy..so let's upload one song firs than we can see my mood..

: )

haha..

the girls damn nice sia..

haha..and cos my mood so good,i'll upload another video..

lately i'm going crazy over songs and videos..

oops..

wad's happening to me?

haha..

: ) enjoy!

so did you enjoy?? hahahhaha..

my long lost love louis!!

2009-07-11T22:00:00.000-07:00

hey ppl!!

finally after how many months of waiting i've finally been able to meet....louis!!!

my one and only netbook..

hehe..

yeaterday finally went to collect it..

after 6 months of not being ab;le to have a proper computer to myself i am now happily enjoying my new love..

now i have absolutetly nothing to post because i'm too happy right now..

i guess good things do happen who wait patiently for them..

: )

haha hehe hoo hoo..

love always loius..

figuring and figuring but jus can't find the ans..

2009-06-24T23:21:00.000-07:00

have u ever gotten the feeling that even if you didn't exist,life would go on as per normal?

to tell the truth,it's a really sucky feeling to feel..

anybody would rather feel happy and high but there always has to be a moment where u feel like a useless goon..

where u would think, why is my life so mundane?

why is it that my life is just so horribly boring..

i don't need so much of excitement,jus some entertainment once in a while..

who am i exactly?

jus when i think i've gotten myself figured out i turn around and become a totally different person..

does this happen to normal ppl?

are my insecurities justified or am i jus being insanely paranoid?

if i could i would change myself totally..

there are so many things that i would love to do but due to many things, i hold myself back..

sometimes i like being who i am and at times i jus hate it..

why did i have to be so traditional..

if i was to be who i am than why make me born in this type of era?

even as i'm typing this i'm still confused as to how i'm feeling..

i kmow it's confusing but i'm confused as well..

if only the answer could come to me than life would be totally perfect..

why am i feeling this way?

am i jealous?

am i envious of the way other ppl live their life?

than why can't i live like them too?

why do i ask myself such qns?

wad is wrong wif me?

ahhhh..

the frustration i have inside me canno0t be expressed in words..

it's jus too tiring to live like this..

it might jus drive me insane..

as i reread this post,the qn in my mind still lingers..

wad i meant to do in this world?

2009-06-05T17:57:00.000-07:00

hey babes..

i'm currently posting on my sis laptop in my lovely grandmothers house..

shocking as it is that i was able to get the laptop from my sis, i think she's softening up..

aww so sweet..

heheh..

anyway, i'm currently having a pajama party at my granmama house..

my family's damn emotional after watchimg a movie..

too funny to watch cos as always i fell asleep halfway through the movie..

standard wad..

: )

later tdy hope to go watch night at the museum and meet my girlfrens after that..

sorry babes but i'm going have to finish off now cos i have to go bath now..><

: )

retardedly bored!!

2009-06-02T00:19:00.000-07:00

i'm so bored!!!

i've jus come back from some stupid guides camp and my body is totally banged up!!

let me list my injuries :

1) a swollen ankle

2) a bruised hand

3) a wounded knee

4) and sore shoulders!!

all this can be available by going to a stupid camp..

wad's worse is that tmr i have a scdf course to attend at chua chu kang..

i'm really starting to hate that place u know..

should i go for bio remedial instead?

aiyah, both sounds stupid!!

let's jus stay at home and relax..

: )

botred..bored..bored..

i want to go shopping!!!!!!

boo hoo hoo..

will post later..

a new realisation

2009-05-19T06:00:00.000-07:00

as weird as it but today has been one of those emoyionl rollercostar rides..

as much as i would not have liked to cry but the events that happrnrd today ahs caused me to cry to my hearts content..

wierdly enough,i have been crying more frequently than i would have liked..

some things are significant but the reat are for simple things..

and i have come to the fact that u are nothing to me alr and i can finally let u go..

after a much painful ordeal,it is now easier to let u go withought feeling a twinge of pain..

however,in place of u,more problems have cropped up,

and i'm not sure if i can handle them..

if only i could than i would not be here posting helplessly and doing something abt it..

sigh..

maybe i'll post when i have better news but i doubt it will be anytime soon..

: (

emo but happy at the same time...

2009-04-10T06:09:00.000-07:00

hey ppl..

i know it's been a long time since i last updated but wad can i do?

i'm jus one busy gal..

haha..

well, honestly i'm very busy..

my bio is giving me depression and so is my maths and physics..

social studies is jus too boring to bother paying attention to and poa is just a blur in my mind.,.

ugh..

my studies are slipping but why can't i pull them up?

i know i must study but why doesn't this stupid brain of mine listen to me???

sigh..

i suspect this will give me depression soon enough..

i must pay more attention in class lah..

naughty me..

haha..

oh well, i've not really updated but there are jus too many trhings to talk abt..

well, i think one important memory is my birthday

which unfortunately was last month on the 18 of march..

thank goodness that it was during the hols cos i don't think i've enjoyed my bday as much as all the other times..

my darling frens,ayuni,durga,krisha.nathira and vimala togather wif me went to marina barrage to celebrate..

they were so sweet and had ballons and cake all prepared..

it was so funny but yet i still liked it..

it was meant to be a picnic and wad good is a picnis without junk fod?

haha..

so we ate the junk food and cut the cake..

the cake was butchered beyond recognition but it was the most delicious cake i had eaten cos i shared it wif my best frens..

after that we went to sit and open the presents that they had given me..

here is wad i got:

1) a tigger soft toy wif a colourful butterfly bracelet from ayuni,

2) a lovely black and grey pump shoe from durga,

3)a heart shape necklace with a white bracelet and long dangling earings from krisha,

4) a pretty brown bangle and dangling earings from nathira and,

5) a sweet smelling perfume from vimalla..

i felt so blessed for having such wonderful friends..

haha..

it's very emotional but i tell like it like i feel it..

after that took a lot of photos and then headed down to suntec to check out some phones..

i was going to get a new phone so i wanted one nice and pretty phone..

went to suntec and ate at mac before roaming around suntec..

went home and was feeling all happy but unfortunately,i was very hurt beacause of somth at home so i don;t want to remember that..

that's one part of the day where i cried out of sadness..: (

anyway,forget that,the next day went to buy my new phone which was a gift from my two sis and my aunt..

sunday was my birthday celebratration wif my family and ate fish biryani..

wonderfull nice!!

haha..

made sure i told durga and krisha the next day..

haha..

now apart from my bday, i think there isn't anything else..

whee..

: )

i'm back!!!

2009-02-27T07:36:00.000-08:00

wow.. it's been so long since i last updated..

unfortunatly i might not be able to update that often anymore as my usage of computer is restricted nowadays.

oh well, but lately it has just been exams and more exams..

unfortunately i was sick on my physics paper and am sure that i would have failed it anyway.

today i wanted to go out wif durga,ayuni,krisha and nathira but mum don't allow..boohoo..

sigh, was lah and my stupid illness ..

but the best thing is that my birthday is coming soon!!

i'm soo happy cos i'm hoping for a neqw phone but if the recession is too bad than i might as well forget abt it..

but still i'm hoping..

haha..

i don't have anything to say alr so goodbye..

welcome back!!

2009-02-01T00:56:00.000-08:00

wah!! so long never blog liao..

so sad.

i see my blog like want to die alr..

siao ah lately so damn busy than too tired to use com..

now sec3 liao so cannot play too much!!

my life like so damn boring lah now..

i come home than so tired to even do my hw..

than sleep like pig until morning and wake up to go schl..

next wk also got bio test than like wan to die alr lah..

that mr oh lah!!

oh oh oh!!

he think he funny lah..

run here run there..

anyways,today i celebrate my sis bday wif the family..

yesterday was the best lah!!

i d surprise for my eldest sis wif my second sis..

not a toal success but she liked it so nvm lah..

haha..

i hope someone will do for me when i'm older lah..

not now..

haha..

k lah..

got nothing else alr..

sian lah..

joong bo good bye!!!!

2008-12-25T08:48:00.000-08:00

so long never post..

i feel as if a huge bomb has dropped over my house..

coming this saturday,my house is going to become a war zone..

tensions rising here and there..

i'm afraid i won't be able to take it..

how much more damage u want to put on my family?

i feel scared for my parents..

but i'm sure they have the strength cos they will always, always,always have me and my sisters,their beloved children..

today i'm so damn emo..

th beginning of the day was so nice..

watched twilight wif my family..

was swept off my feet by how freaking handsome the guy was..

can die for..

then go my aunts house and watch a hindi show called "Tare zameen par"..

i cried so much until my nose was painful and all my eyeliner was wiped out..

so freaking sad!!

i couldn't stop crying and when the boy in the show is left in a boarding school, a school on mothers comes on..

that was the worst!!!

i jus wanted to cry and bawl out loud..

i was crying like a baby..

but had to control a bit cos was not at home..

at someone elses home..

after that,come home and watch a favourite couple leave a variety show i like alot!!

i cry again like a baby!!!

i feel like a tap who can't stiop crying..

my nose is so tired!!!

sigh..

to all my fellow Joong bo fans!!

don;t let us be disheartened!!

let's hope they get togathe in real life eventhough all the difficulties..

or at least let them meet someone who can make them happie than they are now!!!

JOONG BO HWAITING!!

T___T

wah!!!

nameless......

2008-12-17T09:13:00.000-08:00

llaalalal..

haha..

actually got nothing to blog abt but jus got nothing to do so blog lah..

lately never go out so that's why got nothing lah..

but tmr hopefully can meet durga and krisha..

attempting to do some hw and hopefully can do some..

not like as always jus talk and talk and don't do..

fri also should be going to schl to keypo cos got sec 1 orienation..

actually me and ayu wasn't called but it's too good an oppurtunity to miss to bully the sec 1s..

too fun..

than later that night,my mum ask me go to her workplace for a christmas party..

hmm..

wad to wear??

maybe i'll wear my present from my darling peixin!!

she's such a dear!!

which reminds me that i've to go shopping for presents to those who are giving me..

anybody free for christmas shopping??

can go togather..

haha..

anyways,contact me if interested k..

hahah..

: )

soon to be..

2008-12-13T08:26:00.000-08:00

life ain't all it seems..........

it's better than it can be!!

actually i was feeling very down yesterday because of a few things..

not to mention that a few "classmates" weren't making things better..

but i talked it all out wif my sis and felt a whole lot better..

but in the process i of course shed a lot of tears..

i dunno why but i feel a bit insecure and restless..

insecure because of ppl that i'm afraid of losing and restless for some reason i'm still unsure of..

but anyway,i've been having so much fun the past few days that i can forget all of that temporarily..

thurs, i went to Escape wif my sis,cousins and some other family members..

went on the waterlog and was completely drenched..

my sis lah goa nd duck and give me all the water..

somemore we do smth like a mission for each of the slides..

for the photo one must give a paikia face which we did so well!!!!!

hahaha..

then the second one we supposed to shout my name but my sis ps. me than i shout so loud then everyone turn to stare..

so emberrassing!!!

then we even play the water boat thing and get even more wet!!!

after that go home freezing cold cos it was raining also..

fri go out wif ayuni and reza to amk lib..

study a while than go auntie house for her surprise birthday party..

so sweet right my uncle!!

he plan for her!!

i also wan!!

hahaha..

hopefully can go out somemore but in the meanwhile,i stay at home and am watching things that make me laugh until i fall from my chair..

and wonderful songs that make me feel so addicted to it..

why are they so lucky??

why is she so lucky??

hot and successfull..

plus her "bf" is a dream!!

haha..

all idols have six packs!!

can u believe it??

haha..

in pain but loving it!!!

2008-12-06T07:29:00.000-08:00

wheeeee!!!

i wah i now so freaking happy and thankfull!!

today got a lot of things happen..

in the morning go toa payoh and meet someone from my auntie's company and collect something for my sis..

after that go to mac and eat "breakfast" at 11++ wif my eldest sis..

met my other sis at kovan before going to my mother's workplace and then go back to hougang..

then go to pasir ris Downtown East to eat at hey sushi!!

after that damn full then cannot eat alr..

after that shop around and than go east point and shop somemore..

today bought a few things like:

3 thin hairbands,

1 thick hairband,

1 pair of high heel shoes,

6 pin badges,

and some other neccesaties..

only came home at 9.30 pm..

but worse thing is that on my way home,i found out that my handphone was missing..

it wsasn't in my bag or any of the other shopping bags..

i damn sad alh..

everytime at the end of the year always kanna loh..

must lose the handphone..

somemore i very good the whole year loh!!

nothing happen to my phone the entire year!!

it's like the stealing incident at east coast at last years class BBQ..

why i so cham one!!

but then..just now the phone ring and the person who found my phone called!!!!!!

they say i left at their shop..

so careless of me!!

but anyway,i'm so damn freaking happy!!!

squeeeeeeeeeaaaakkkk!!!!

wheeeeee!!!!

hhhahahahhahahah..
anyway tmr will go collect wif my sis..

heng ah..

but now my legs hurt so much from walking and walking all over the east part of singapore..

but i don't care cos i'm getting my phone back now!!!

hahahah..

too happy to write alr lah..

wheeee!!

life = hardships u can't imagine..

2008-11-28T09:07:00.000-08:00

today i'm a bit tired so won't post long..

here's wad i did today:

COOK nasi goreng,

burn myself while doing it,

bathe,

go schl,

check results,

GOT PURE BIO!!!

had lunch wif ayuni,ameresh and ayuni's mum,

roam around kovan,

come home,

sleep..

that's all for today..

let me know if u want more updates on this boring and dull rut i'm currently in!!

attention is appreciated!!

: )

i jus love this song!!!

don't understand never mind..

as long as i understand can alr..

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why can they be so lucky?

so envious!!!

pretty,yalented and loved wordwide!!

"Nobody but u!!"

: )

a day saved!!

2008-11-26T08:04:00.000-08:00

what else can i write..

today jus wake up,have breakfast,COOK chicken curry!!

can u believe it!!

i actually cooked by myself an indian dish!!

ugh..

went out wif mother to do dunno wad also..

came back was feeling a bit down..

go on com and watch some things that make me laugh until my stomah pain!!

haha..

so funny!!

than watch some MVs..

wah i can die!!

all the guys all so freaking handsome!!

i want!!

can give me??!

then i also see this group of so cute children!!

can die for!!

so cute!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FyHi5PXI6bk

this is the link for it so i can access it anytime i want!!

hahaha..

woodbrige, here i come!!!!!! : )

2008-11-24T08:53:00.000-08:00

today i'm so happy!!

after almost 7 days my two best frens are back from china!!

whee!!

finally i have someone who i can interact with that are not noobs!!

today i went to schl to "sell" the schl..

must jus tour the students who come for a tour of the schl..

boring like mad..

at firs i go there than vinod and other ppl tease me cos of somethings at camp..

lame lah..

in the end i ignore them and jus laugh at them cos they so stupid!!

haha..

serve them right..

anyway come home then jus slack..

tmr wan to talk to durga and ayuni!!

yaa!!

haha..

miss them lots and lots cos i was bored!!

wad to do when both my best frens go to another foriegn country..

anyway,now jus slacking on com and don't wan to sleep yet..

sleep like so sian..

anyway,this fri we get the result of our apeals..

hope i got pure bio..

if not than must take f&n..

wah..

ok lah..

won't die but will be tortured!!
must end now and go sleep so tmr can come fast fast!!

heading off to the land of zzzzzzzsss is safa signing off!!

wheeeeeeeeee!!

off to the mental hospital cos all that i'm writing is so spastic that i can't believe i'm even writing this!!

someone stop me!!!

hahahahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahahah........

byeeeeeeee!!

screw loose!!!!!

2008-11-21T22:18:00.000-08:00

hello ppl!!

although it's a little late but i'm back from camp!!

i came back on thurs and jus slept the whole day so i could not blog as soon as i come home like i planned..

anyways,i won't bore u all wif the details of my camp except that there were some funny moments especially concerning toilets..

haha..

i must sound like crazy person but i don't really care..

anyway,i can say that i don't want to go for another prefects camp an the near future..

one reason is that right now i'm blogging wif a running nose and a horrible cough

wif sore throat..

horrible camp make me sick lah..

wateva!!

at leadt i come back from camp my sis all very nice never ask me to do work but i've a horrible feeling that i very soon have to..

well,at least durga and ayuni coming back soon on monday!!

yaa!!

i miss them so much!!

but so wad loh..

the day they come back i have to go schl for some stupid prefect thing..

stupid lahh!!

i wan to go airport and welcome them!!

sigh..

never mind lahh..

will definitely see them the next day..

must!!

hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..

i think i got some crew loose!!

when i read my past posts i think how crazy i was that i write so many stupid things!!

like right now!!

but i don't really care anymore!

i'll write lah wadeva crazy things i do!!

whee!!

right now i'll sign off!!

byeeee all my crazy frens!!

뜨거워져 (Original Ver.) - Hwang Bo

camp..

2008-11-16T02:24:00.000-08:00

tmr i'll be going to camp ppl!!

i'm not exactly psyched abt it but i'll try to be..

oh crap..

i haven't even packed!!

wow!!

at least i have all the things that i'll need..

all i need to do now is pack..

i'll miss my com and my bed !!

at camp we are sleeping in the classrooms!!

hmm..

the most important thing is wether can sleep there?

or worse still, can wake up or not???
haha..

now holiday so i wake up late but for camp should be ok lah..

hopefully..

ok..

donno wad to say so will end here..

: )

farewell!! but i'll be back.. : )

2008-11-15T09:21:00.000-08:00

wah!!

lately i've been going out alot so i'm very happy!!

haha..

thurs i went to senkang for some SANA course and met a few ppl who are very happenng ppl..

but the course freaking long and i only reach home 7 +..

walau..so tired when i come home..

i faster eat dinner and want to sleep but my sis lah..

must finish her essay so i cannot sleep cos she lock the door..

nvm lah..

at least she finish the essay..

fri went to suntec wif my sis and checked out the electrical fair and popular bookfest..

i bought my pencil box and wallet for next yr alr!!

yaa..

i like my pencil case alot!!

it was very difficult to decide but in the end managed to choose..

after that went home cos very tired..

today again another long day..

after tuition met my mum at kovan and went shopping..

finally bought my school shoe..

also bought a lot of things for camp on monday..

monday i'm going to prefects camp and will only return i think on wednesday..

so sian..

i alone go camp!!

today durga and ayuni go to china..

i managed to call them and wish them bon voyage..

i miss them alr..

i want to go out wif who for the next two weeks??

sigh..

anyone going out than tell me in advance than i also want to go!!

this prefects camp is going to be so freaking boring but i'm determined to jus heck care and become a crazy and insane person..

haha..

anyways,tmr want go to grandma's house and see some auntie who have come down from chicago..

sigh..

tmr also is the final eposide for one couple in 'we just married'..

most of u wont understand cos u all are not fans of koreans!!

but anyways,i'm going to miss them..

i'm not going to bother writing the link cos i think not many of u are interested but if u really interested than u tell me and i'll give u the link..

anyways,this will be mylast post before i go for camp..

so anyways,bye bye..

take care of yourselves in china and take a lot of picture for me k..

i will miss u and always rmb!!

I LOVE U BOTH!!

haha..

anyways,missing u alr..

to my dearest AlShin fans!

don't be sad but lets jus hope they become a real couple despite all the difficulties!!

AlShin fighting!!

: )

insaneley crazy!!

2008-11-12T08:15:00.000-08:00

whee!!

haha..

i'm not sure why i'm so happy right now!!

haha..

anyways,lately never update so here's what u missed..

well,i can't rmb all but basically yesterday went to Malaysia and have lunch and do a bit of shopping before coming back..

the day before never do anything but jus stay home..

sunday went to sentosa wif my aunt and a relative of my grandmas..

after that cannot rmb liao!!

tmr must go senkang and attend some course for cca..

so sian!!

i don't wan go!!

sigh..

nvm, maybe fri can go out wif my sis or maybe ayuni!!

i want to see durga and ayuni before they go china!!

but if cannot than cannot lah..

durga so busy wif her dance than sometimes i cannot go out..

sigh..

at least maybe can see ayuni..

hopefully!!

so bored stay at home!!

i also don't mind going my grandma house cos can watch videos there..

i also wan to buy new bag and shoes for schl!!

aaahh!!

no fair loh..

i also want to buy new bag and PENCIL BOX and STATIONARY!!

ok lah..

tired liao!!

ps.i recommend everyone to watch Hana Yori Dango season 1,2 and the finale!!

recommended by me and all fans!!

but pls watch season 1 and 2 firs before u watch the finale!!

a must watch!!

WHEE!!

2008-11-06T08:18:00.000-08:00

why is life like this?

i've been worrying for the entire year for this moment..

why does the school have to put my best fren in another class..

u know it's funny that this has happened cos i seriously thought that i would end up in

a different class than my two best frens..

but once again fate has played tricks on us again..

next yr i'll end up in 3e3..

my subjects are as follows:

physics&chem combined,

POA,

f&n..

wad is this sia?

why do i have to get this subject?

i don't really like this subject yet i still got it..

why the schl cannot jus give us the subjects that we want to study instead of sticking us wif some subjects that may pull us down?

if i intend to drop mother tounge then i cannot drop f&n..

how now?

aiyah..

nvm lah..let fate play wif me lah..

sigh..

lately i've been watching a lot of dramas..

i know such things don't happen in real life especially mine considering me being an

indian & muslim gal..

but a girl can dream right?

i'm determined to make my own life more fun than most indian girls..

it's time for a little change..

and besides which guy has not watched shows showing them how to treat their gal..

if they want us to treat them well then they had better buck up..

haha..

anyways there is a lot of time for that..

now i'll jus concentrate on my studies and become an idependant gal who doesn't have to

depend on her guy all the time..

well,i think that is about of daydreaming for now..

haha.. : )

anyway jus yesterday met premela and keety for the first time in abt 6 months..

can u believe it?

wow..

had a lot of fun wif them..

talk a lot of rubbish and play like crazy!!

haha..

hopefully can meet them next week..

: )

i think that i'll jus end off now cos my eyes are tired so i'll head off to dreamland..

to dream somemore..

: )

i never meant any of that..

2008-11-02T01:09:00.001-07:00

to all the ppl who have read my last post..

pls don't get the wrong idea abt my mum..

whatever that i have written were written in fits of anger and frustration..

my mum is one of the important ppl in my life and wateva she does is for my benefit..

i was blinded by envy and frustration and thus said many hurtful things that

i absolutely don't mean..

i forgot that words are something that you cannot take back and i made a silly mistake

by saying many things that i don't mean..

i've learnt a valuable lesson from this and i will make sure that this does not happen ever again..

i now remember something my sis told me when i first created my blog..

"Never write something that you will be ashamed to read at your funeral"

and this sentence is so very true..

i'm sorry..

love is wad bonds sisters..

2008-10-23T05:18:00.000-07:00

hello!!

for the past few posts i've been very emo but i can't do anything abt that can i?

i've jus been sad the past few days..

but forgetting the sad days,i've had some power fun days!!

yesterday went bowling and had a lot of fun!!

i had a strike lah!!

after bowling,came back to schl and then went to eat at the yassin restraunt outside..

the bandung there is yumm!!

after eating went to mac and try to find durga's ezlink but cannot find..

then go to the playground behind and took a lot of photos with durga,ayuni and krisha..

went crazy taking photos..

ayuni headed home earlier and durga,krisha and i slacked at mac..

we talked abt a few things but sori lah cannot mention..

haha!!

came home and rest..

today jus go schl and take report bk..

saw bryan very kanchong to take the report bk..

haha..

glad he made it!! must study hor next yr..

then come home and sleep like pig until 4+..

dunno why but so tired then cannot wake up..

wake up then my darling sister come back from malaysia!!

i'm so happy that i cry sia..

i really missed her yesterday..

not only yerstday lah but more yesterday..

i cannot even describe how happy i was cos there is no other way to describe

how important she is to me..

and i'm sori to my other sis cos i think she feels like my eldest sis is more imp..

i think that during this period we have gotten closer we had to depend on each other..

i hope we can always be like this..

i don't hate you in fact you too are very imp..

i jus don't say it but you two are very imp to me..

i don't know if i am the best younger sis but i try to be..

i am your youngest and most adorable sis mah..

haha..

i feel weird jus saying that..

kekeke..

: )

i try but you make it too difficult..

2008-10-22T05:51:00.000-07:00

why am i like this?

why do i only turn to my blog at times like this?

but what can i do when i have an overbearing mother who restricts my freedom

thinks she is doing me a big favour by allowing me to go out and have fun?

if having lunch outside for the last time with my frens who are going overseas tmr

wrong then wad is right?

she can even compare me with xxxxxxx who did something much worse than me..

all i did was spend my last day of schl wif my best fwens before school closes..

i didn't even go far away from schl but still she made a big deal out of it..

she evens makes sarcastic remarks and thinks that i'm too young to eat out wif my frens..

how am i supposed to react to this?

will someone tell me?

i'm now crying my lungs out while writing this but why do i feel so alone..

i miss u my dearest sister!!

the only person in this whole family that at least understands me and does not restrict me..

i'm sure that you would help me when i was being attacked just now..

but you are now not here wif me cos you deserve this little break you are getting..

you've worked very hard so far so u deserve this break but why do i miss u so much right now?

i don't have anyone to talk to me so i feel so lonely..

i want to stop but my tears jus won't stop fallimg..

thoughts roam around my head but i try not to entertain them..

i'm too scared to do them..

i'm not that brave eventhough i may act brave..

i'm sori that i only blog about sad events but what can i do when i feel so miserable..

i jus hope that my mum would understand that i'm different from the rest of my sis and what worked on them may not work on me..

what is the most annoying part is that she acts nice to me the next miniute and that really gets on my nerves..

ahh!!

i dunno wad to think!!

i miss u baji!!

pls come home faster!!

i need u!!

tiredness is taking over my life..

2008-10-14T05:49:00.000-07:00

lately have been too tired to update..

my results so far have been quite okay..

but i dunno why i feel so sad?

maybe its because i can do better or is it something else?

am i feeling too insecure or wad?

am i reading too much into it?

AIYAH!! DUNNO LAH!!

i try not to be so emo but why is it that i only feel like updating when i feel sad?

nvm..

so lately have been getting back results..

ENGLISH=A2

SCIENCE=A2

GEOG=A2

MATHS=C6(good enough )

ART=B3

MALAY=D7(improvement hor)

so overall i'm okay lah..

and best of all,i'm promoted to sec 3E so don't need to worry abt that..

idon't have the will to carry on so i'll stop here today..

must recharge my battery then can be energetic and cheerful like the real me..

hope i can go back to being that person..

lalala..

Over it - Katharine Mcphee

freedom!!(at last)

2008-10-09T07:31:00.001-07:00

yaa!! exams are over!!

i've missed my com and my blog..

i thought my blog was going to die cos i never blog for so long..

haha..

today went to orchard wif peixin,renee and ayuni..

wanted to buy some stud earings but no time..

my mum lately have been getting too unreasonable that i barely can go out now..

we watched the movie house bunny and laugh like crazy sia..i recommend the movie

cos very "educational"..

if u can understand..

tmr canno go out so i'll jus slack at home and watch tv..

so many thinhs happen but cannot write all lah..

i want to go shopping again..

i wan buy emo shirt and earings!!

someone pei me ah..

nvm..i'll go wif my sis lah..

haha..

that's all for today la..

so sian right my life?

lalala : (

2008-08-25T05:39:00.000-07:00

Kryptonite - 3 Doors Down

today dunno why don't feel like blogging..

i dunno why i feel like this?

i should be happy instead of being emo..

wad's wrong wif me??

lately have not been blogging so i have a lot of things to say..

wierdly,that feeling is gone and a feeling of sadness and loneliness is covering me..

although i've been going out a lot more and i've been really happy..

how do i describe this feeling?

i want to just tell all the things that i want to someone but

on the other hand i rather keep quiet..

sigh..

aah!!

stop being emo safa!!

anywayz,apart from my emo self,

i've been really going out the past few days..

sat went to marina bay and watched the fireworks..

so fun!!they started out with a korean song so i was even more happy!

while watching the fireworks,i felt all my troubles just 'boom' away wif the fireworks..

i felt like a child all over again..

clapping my hands and smiling to myself..

sun went to grandma's house the kanna lectured/advised by my aunts cos my

common test not very good..

so stressed!!

then ws very emo until i play games wif my sis and cousins..

my cousin make me laugh like crazy sia..

today actually wanted to go home fast fast but met sandya and steffie all..

they wanted to go to manisha's house but in the end say don't wan cos don't wan make more problems for manisha..

then walk wif dashan to mrt and she tell me some great news on the way..

come hom later than expected then faster get ready wif my sis..

went to amk hub to buy my new shoes for this friday..

so happy!!

i love my new shoes !!^^

hahax..

after searching around found my shoes..

now dunno why but feel like emoing..

anyways,i feel like a boudler is removed from my shoulder..

i'm so grateful thankful and relieved..

i hope she learns her lesson..

thank u dashan!!

u really made my day!! ^^

well that's all for now..

don't know why but i'm sori for being emo everyone..

: )

thank u for helping me sleep better..

i want to be happy again..

i want to forget my problems..

someone can help me but do u know who u are??
i know u don't..

sigh..

sigh : (

2008-08-18T05:47:00.000-07:00

Im Walking Away -

Ahh!!why do i feel so alone..

why are the ppl that i thought that i was most beloved to doin this to me??

can't u jus chill?

i made that comment jus as a joke..

if my speech is going to be restricted than how am i supposed to

show u the real me??

sigh.. : (

u keep on complaining that i'm not the same girl

but that's life..

ppl change and so i did..

if that's wrong than wad's right??

if u don't wan to see the real me than don't complain that i don't

spend time wif u..

i try but u jus push me away..

in the end,i jus move away..

is that wad u really want??

ppl everywhere is causing me to be so confused..

i want to give u another chance but i'm afraid that u'll jus repeat ecerything again..

how can i know that u'll not betray my friendship again??

i don't mind the gossip but i want to make sure that u'll not betray me again..

life really can suck big time and can rock as well..

i wish that i had some kind of help..

my heart is in such turmoil but all

i can do is jus watch and listen..

someone help..

: (

boring is my life..

2008-08-13T05:43:00.000-07:00

hiee.. : )

today i almost died in the most boring lessons ever..

only english was fun cos got the debate thingy..

haha..

anywayz,maths and science was bearable enough but lit was too much..

my poor mind couldn't take it anymore..

was too sleepy..

after schl also had to go home fast cos of tuition..

sigh..

my life is so boring..

i want go to the overseas trip either to india or china..

but don't think can..

mummy doesn't seem happy so can jus forget abt asking her also..

i'm not going to try also cos i'll jus be dissapointed..

aothough i'll regret it like anything..

sigh..

well,nothing to post ar..

till my next boring post..

: (

2008-08-11T07:05:00.000-07:00

hiee : )

OMG..my blogs abt to die..

haha..

anywayz,last friday was national day celebrations and after that went out

wif durga,krisha,nathira,vimala and vaseela(not sure spelling)..

borrowed vimala's shades the whole day!!

on sat stayed home after tuition and on sun jus slacked at my aunts place..

watched the show"i am legend"

was freaked out like mad..

yesterday,went to malaysia wif my mum,sisters,aunts and gramma..

bought a top from there and a lot of food that is either not halal here or not available here..

haha..we went crazy!!

came home and jus slept like anything.

that's all for now..

till the next post..

: )

i don't know what's bothering u but

we will always be there for you..

u can always tell us wad's happening..

saranghye <33

so paiseh!!

2008-08-07T07:42:00.000-07:00

hiee : )

today again i dunno why but i went sugar crazy..

ran here and there until got very tired..

the best thing was that after being high,i durga,krisha and vimala

wanted to go to mac..

on our way past the dm room,saw ayuni and priya inside sitting on a table..

durga and krisha went inside and vimala and i waited outside..

got caught by mr ng and was punished..

we had to carry chairs from the hall to behind the flag pole for the band..

so paiseh ah!!

anywayz,all of us was cursing ng and laughing too much that our stomaches hurt..

after that,my energy was gone..

it only returned when one of the ppl that durga and i aprank called yesterday called

back and tried to flirt..

i scolded him left right and centre..

: )

after that he never call back..

plus he sounded a bit drunk lah..

so scary!!

haha..

anywyz,that's abt all i have to post cos the rest of the day was so boring that i

wanted to sleep lah..

tmr national day celebrations so can enjoy!! : )

tii the next post..

: )

sugar high!!

2008-08-06T07:05:00.000-07:00

hiee : )

here are some of the photos i promised..

haha..

anywayz,today i think i had too much sugar cos in HE class i went crazy and was

disturbing everybody..

after school also i kept disturbing poor krisha and nathira..

i must have gone mad!! : )

wadeva!!

after ayuni,nathira and krisha left,it was only me

durga and vimala..

we went to hall and saw the performances..

some were okay lah..

some were horrible..

durga and i was prank calling ppl using vimala's phone..

then one man call and try to flirt lah..

i make him paiseh like mad and he never call back..

haha..

anywayz,that's all i have to say..

till the next post..

: )

vengence is sweet..

2008-08-05T05:58:00.000-07:00

hiie : )

today was my Darling Durga's B'dae!!

yesterday i went to bugis wif ayuni and we bought two t-shirts

at a sale..

one is like a dark green/brown "little miss burthday" and the other

is a white macdonald t-shirt..

after that we went to take some neoprints and bought some coloured paper..

then we started drawing and cutting out the words "happy b'dae"..

then pasted them on the paper wif some neoprints and coloured sticker..

today,came to school and actually didn't want to give her present ato her until after school

but decided to not let the poor girl wait..

took some photos wif ayuni's digital camera..

later will upload..

apart from mother tounge,the day was bursting with fun and laughter..

after school, me,ayuni,durga,yeehuey,shelley,regina,vanessa,eugena,

benjamin,azizi and ameresh went to the old folks home to do CIP with 20 2e1 students..

once there,sang some songs and played games until it was time to surprise Durga with a special cake that ayuni had ordered and mr toy payed for..

some ppl ate like pigs while the rest could barely get some..

as though they have not eaten before!!

anyway,had cake and beehoon before helping the old folks get going on home..

i also noticed that some ppl was sticking to other girls cos she is the type that is very

scared to be left alone..

wadeva!! ><

if you didn't make us lose trust in you and make use of the sympathy we had for you..

i trusted you and told you so many things and this is wad u do to my

trust and frens..

if you were going to bitch abt ppl,at least have the decency to admit it and

not deny it..

the evidence is in your face!!

life is never easy and if you have to salam or greet some irritating idiots that teach you horribly,that is worse..

ppl who don't deserve respect and have caused me to lose all respect for them..

these ppl will be hated by me till the day i die..

don't make yourself lose your dignty by following other ppl..

bitches don't deserve my respect and

at least have some brains abt who you'r bitching abt..

ppl who are teachers but suck at teaching can might

as well forget being liked by me!!

: )

2008-08-03T06:55:00.000-07:00

today was quite fun..

stayed at home and waited for my aunt and cousins to come over..

before that i had a funny encounter wif my sis..

i irritated her until she started tickling me and messed up my hair and i too started to mess

her hair up..

soon it turned into a hair messing fight with some tickling..

i couldn't stop laughing and my eldest sis jus sat ther in the room and laughed ta the two

of us..

my family's weird!! haha : )

anywayz,watched some shows wif my aunts and had some tea before my

aunts left..

after that slacked on the com and finished my korean drama..

man i seriously cried buckets and i hate the ending

so i'm creating my new ending in my mind to make myself happy..

nowadays i've been very naughty and not been studying..(sigh) : (

been slacking a lot and not been doing hw..

must start studying alr!! : )

anywayz,tmr i'm going bugis to get durga's present but it's a secret..

haha :)

i'm seriously lame lah!!

well that's all for now..

till the next post then..

: )

2008-08-01T09:23:00.000-07:00

why does my heart feel heavy?

why do i feel so tired and drained?

my head is filled with thoughts but my eyes want to cry..

weird enough,my tears are stuck in my eyes and refuse to come out..

today i heard many things that have made me feel sad

and miserable..

i try to forget but my mind is flooded..

why is life like this?

(sigh)

catching up..

2008-07-29T00:04:00.000-07:00

hiee dear readers.. : )

today when i went back to schl,so many ppl knew straight away that i had ponteng schl..

how thet know ah?

i very naughty meh??no lah!

i so kwai how can?

ok stop it safa..stop praisng yourself..u look like an idiot..

anywayz..today had to catch up on my studies cos never study yesterday..

after that went to the library wif ayu and studied there

before going home..

after that was really boring cos i jus slack at home..

well,i think it's time to stop h ere or else i'll bore u wif my life story..

till the next post..

: )

ponteng day!!

2008-07-28T05:27:00.000-07:00

hiee dear readers..

today i was very naughty and ponteng schl.. : ]

no lah! i never intentional ponteng..

i wake up a little late then how to go to schl??

heehee : )

so while everyone was studying hard at schl,i was at home slacking!

very shiok lah!!

hahax ^^

ok lah..since i stay home and jus slack so got noyhing much to post..

so goodbye for now!!

: )

life=boring

2008-07-25T06:33:00.000-07:00

hey ppl.. : )

lately i've been too busy wif common tests to blog but i don't want to talk abt exams cos i'm freaking scared i'll fail..

anywayz, a belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dearest Regina who is now

14 years of age.. yaa!!

now that common test is over,i want to go shopping but so sad have to

prepare for final year exams!!

so sian ah!!

why were exams invented?

they suck so much that u cannot help but hate them..

(sigh) : (

anyways,i got nothing else to post..

life is boring!!

isn't this hot?

2008-07-21T05:37:00.000-07:00

hiee dear readers..

another boring day passed by...

wad else can i say??

the day jus passed as though nothing happened which was

exactly wad happened??

although i'm emoing now,i want to turn happy and crazy again like

i was in class today..

for that,i must listen to upbeat songs like this one:

isn't this song nice??

even if it's in korean and u don't understand?

the girls are so hot but i think one of the girls got too tanned cos she

looks quite dark at times but really hot at other times..

if u understand wad i'm saying..

this song is one of my faves cos it makes me

feel soo happy and that life goes on without boys..

~~~~~"maybe i love u"~~~~

this song is for my darling durga and ayuni!!

: )

2008-07-20T05:56:00.000-07:00

hiee dear readers..

i know i've not been updating so here's a summary: D

friday,18 july 2008

today was my darling ayuni's bday so durga and i planned a surprise for her

by buying her a cake with the help of some of our dear classmates,

but sadly the band people could not attend so they could not get

their piece..

during the day the class sang a happy bday song for ayu and that made her shy like hell

and made durga and i very happy..

i was so jealous cos ayuni had so many nice presents,,

especially the one i gave her!! : )
so jealous!!

anywayz,after that was totally boring wif cca and stuff..

: )

saturday,19 july 2008

today again was quite boring lah..

had malay tuition then went toa payoh wif mummy and met prima there..

did a bit of shopping but was too crowded and so couldn't really shop..

too many people rushing everywhere..

after walking around for hours,decide to drob by amk hub to buy bubble tea and then headed home..

i know that u'r trying so i'm sori

i keep nagging u but if u jus

hold out a little longer,u

will be able to succeed!!

onne fighting!!

bored,bored and bored

2008-07-17T20:14:00.000-07:00

hiee dear readers..

today again was kind of boring apart also..

also because my darling eugena did not come to school today

so i missed her alot!!

anywayz,after schl jus haged around,studied some maths and got freaking mad at some boy of upper sec level who called me a very vulgur word..

if it wasn't for his kind-hearted and very nice friend,i wouldn't even forgive him!!

anyway,talking abt that incident jys makes me angry all over again so

apart from that and the fact that lessons were totally boring,

life's great!!

xoxoxoxo

i'll forgive u today but watch u'r wordds next time..

and clean u'r mouth properly cos it must

be dirty from saying vulgaraties..

also,ask for forgivness u'rself and don't send u'r

fren..

memories to last : )

2008-07-16T06:45:00.000-07:00

hiee dear readers : )

nothing much to post cos the day was really boring!!

all we did was sit in front of our teachers and stare at thier faces..

and the vocab quiz we had today was freaking easy so i hope that i have nothing to

worry abt.. : )

now that i'm done talking abt my totally boring life,i'll end this post..

i hope u had fun reading my totally uninteresting and unfun life..

hahaha!! : )

xoxoxoxo

as the days pass on,

my life feels gone

i wonder wad would be different

if our lives were on paths that are different..

(not bad a poem for a beginner ain't it??)

hahahax.. : )

xoxoxoxo

emo crapping!! : )

2008-07-14T06:21:00.000-07:00

hie dear readers,

today again was as boring as ever..

had class photo taking today and had a lot of fun wif the funny photo..

everybody wan to stand on the last bench but the annoying boys were stubborn and

refused to get down! hmmph!!

anyways,lessons after that were completely boring and i was ready to ciao

when the last bell rang for the day..

after that went to mac wif durga and ayu and met darling krisha and

vimalla there..the best thing is that krisha left her phone on our table and left

mac and only realised later that her phone was missing..

wandered around hougang mall after that and then went home..

so sian lah..tmr got common test and i hope i do EXTREMELY WELL!!

i want to get top in level again for common test than can show my english really power but

i think by the way i'm typing now,cannot do that well..

sadded :(

will tmr be just as torturous as today..

will i always have to look at u from the back only?

wad crap am i saying??

emo crap..i hate being emo!! : )

All Rise - Blue

: ) thanks!!

2008-07-12T21:58:00.000-07:00

hiee dear readers..

i'm sori that i have not been updating my blog because of some cca stuff..

this week i've been really busy training hard for the passing out parade

for the sec4s..

anywayz,today my aunt treat my sisters and myself wif my mum to swensons..

we had lunch there as well as desssert!! shiok right?? ^^

after lunch,roamed around bishan and bought my sis her birthday gift..

she wanted a nice and soft robe that u normally see rich people

wear in movies or dramas..

after that went to poh kim cd shop and bought some cd's to watch at home

but so sad cos common test coming so cannot slack..

after that walked around somemore and then made our way home..

a bit of a boring day but the best part was the treat at swensons..

As for my very last emo posts,pls forget abt that cos i had

some difficulties that day so i wanted to let it all out at my blog.. : )

and a very big THANK YOU to my darling ayuni and durgafor helping me.. : )

when i was down,u were there

u pulled me up from the depths of sadness

and for that i thank u,my dear ayuni and durga

cos i feel much better bcos of u both..

ahhh!! frustrated!!!

2008-07-08T06:47:00.000-07:00

my heart feels burdened like a stone that sinks in water..

how i wish that one day someone would put me out of my misery..

why can't u ever understand me??

am i that hard to relate to??

every time u look at me,u give me that face as though I've done smth wrong

when in actual fact my only mistake was to try to

make u understand my stand and views..

as my one and most trusted person in this house,why did u have to

do this to me and disappoint me?i thought that u were like me..

even if our age may not be the same, but our mind sometimes think as one

but my heart feels as though it has been stabbed a thousand times..

not by a knife but by your love for me..

love for your siblings or someone important is not meant to hurt the other person..

why do i seem ungrateful that i have so much love from so many ppl but this

love is suffocating me instead of helping me..

i feel as though I'm the one in the wrong to feel this way but on the other hand,i feel

happy that u are able tho see the attitude that I'm showing u

now as this shows how tired i am..

somebody pull me out from the depths of depression and allow me to bask in happiness and

joy..my heart is tired from being hurt and my eyes are tired from

crying..(will my prince charming come to save me?? i may not be pretty but every girl deserves a prince to rely on)

help me please someone??

: (

will my happiness ever come to me..

will my heart ever recover from the deep scars it has faced..

will someone come to me and make me believe in love again..

will someone hear my cries for help..

my future?? confirmed or unknown??

2008-07-06T10:01:00.000-07:00

hiie dear readers!! : )

i know that i have not been updating lately and am finally going to update

my blog after countless reminders from my dearest ayuni!!

recently i have been spending more time wif my family as they say family always

comes first but should we continue to live our lives to the preference of our family?

our lives are for us to lead but at the back of our minds we have

embedded the nagging nature of our parents and elders..

well,apart from all this heavy thinking abt my future and stuff,i have been

fasting this past week and hopefully,i can complete my fasting by next wk..

but of course,how can u ever go a day without laughing your head off or

being completely emo because some boys do not know how to talk tactfully!!

i really wonder if these boys will ever grow up and learn proper etiquette

and wadeva they do,neve make stupid comments!!

why are boys at this age like that??

anywayz,i have not been blogging for loing that so many things have happpened but i'm jus too lazy to

type them all down..

let me summarise my entire week:tiring eventful and emo..

well that is to summarise my week but who know,maybe next week wii be more eventful??

i hope..

: )

why does my heart hurt when i see u?

why do i feel so distant from u depite u bieng so close to me??

why do i feel that my love is noing because my fture is alr set??

it may hurt but,i can honestly say that i don't regret liking u..

madness in library!! ^^

2008-07-01T05:14:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!! : )

lately i have been using the com much more than normal cos of this blog!!

the best thing is that my dearest mummy does not even notice so i'm

free from nagging!!(at the moment) ^^

anywayz,today woke up 1 hour earlier than normal cos was supposed to

fast today but of course,i had difficulty to get up(hehe)

and i would have gone hungry if not 4 my darling mummy and ayuni!!

the day was not bad and i survived the day!!^^

all lessons were fine but eng was the worst cos almost everyone was sleeping

in class and the weather didn't help at all!!(yukkers)

it was so freaking humid and i was especially thirsty

but had to control my want to drink water!!

after schl went to library wif ayu since we cannot eat lunch..

we immediately went to check if our books that we hid the day before was still there..

i think u all must be thinking wad books??

let me explain,yesterday me and ayu went to the lib and fell in love

wif two books but couldn't borrow them because of some dumb fines!! crazy right??: )

so we hid the books like some crazy ppl and came back for our dear books today!!

how do we do these crazy things i also don't know??we have some

wierd gene inside us that makes us crazy and wierd at the same time..

wierd right??

so we found our books and sat in the lib until 5+jus waiting 4 time to pass by..

came home and broke fast at aroud 7+which was like heaven!!

well dear readers,tmr i might not be able to blog cos i have two tuitions but don't worry i'll try my best to blog tmr!! pls tag at my chatbox thanks!!

xoxoxoxo

life may suck a thousand times but one word

from u'r loved will change your thnking and make

the world look like roses !! : )

hyenas laughing day!!

2008-06-30T05:41:00.000-07:00

hello to all : )

today was very boring lah..mr toy finally came to schl today

so i didn't need to take attendance(whew!!)

after schl,me and ayuni planned to go to Qi Ji to eat popiah but met ameresh and

bemjamin so the plans got changed and went to mac instead! : )

the boys soon left while me and ayu stayed on and talked all sorts of crap and laughed

like hyenas!!hehehe ; )

went to buy ayu's foolscap and proceded to library and found out that i got

a huge fine thanks to some ppl but i don't really blame then cos they jus helped me live

up to my family tradition of never returning books on time!! ^^

went to library and picked some books to read to become model students but failed terribly

the english in the books were very powefull!!hahax ^^

laughed again like hyenas in library and stayed there until 5+..

sori lah but i have to stop blogging now or else can't study and

dearest mummy will start nagging again!!

anyway,wish me luck cos tmr i'm going to fast for

personal reasons so pls don't come near me wif food if u don't want to screamed at!! hahahax : )

i'll always be there for u like u have been for me since kindergarden!! stay happy!! : )

first entry!!

2008-06-29T05:35:00.000-07:00

Hellooo!! My name is SAFA and this is my first

entry since it was made by my dearest fwen,AYUNI.

pls tag my blog if u have any nice comments..but strictly no vulgaruties and mean

comments allowed!!

THIS BLOG IS MEANT FOR FUN AND LAUGHTER!!

**NO MEANNESS ALLOWED**

Anyway that's all i have to write today..

GOODNIGHT EVERYONE!!

: )

sarang hae

2008-06-27T21:18:00.001-07:00

wheeeeeee!